I Am Still Sober

The last week has seen me have some awesome highs followed by a few lows. My job is like my sobriety: a roller coaster that is unpredictable and I never know what to expect each day. You would think it would be my teenage clients who cause me the biggest angst, but unfortunately it is the adults I work with and the politics of the workplace. I try not to get involved, but it is incredibly hard not to when it affects my professional practice.

However, I am enjoying only working four days a week and having a day to clean, get a pedicure, catch up on emails, TV etc. Mostly I am enjoying just not being at work and being able to unwind before the next week starts.

Often, I am being confronted with issues surrounding my children and the way I am handling these as the sole parent. It’s a bit tougher than I thought it would be, again, each day is different and I think we are going ok.

I think my most frustrating thing at the moment is that I don’t have the energy at the end of the day to write things down on this blog. Many times this week I have wanted to share the day’s happenings and how I have handled them sober. One day this week the old familiar feeling of wanting to drink my stress away, like the ‘old days’, came back in force. I handled OK. Waited it out. Used distractions. The night continued. It’s these days I want to write about and share.

But for now I am just checking in. Telling you, I’m still here and still sober.